Laziness

the laziness is seeping in. the laziness is seeping in.
i have not really write anything recently. was busy, was tired, and maybe i was really being lazy...

爱。恨。拔河。

爱与恨像不停地反复拔河。
爱因太深所以伤更深，让人久久无法示怀。
恨又不时的乞食着， 但总会让人有种心虚。
挣扎着谁也都不想让步，于是就这样子无法平息。

有一天也许当这爱恨扯平在无谁胜负后各自离场也可渐渐地平静下来。

Plan

i have plans you...

all you need to is to have faith in me and let this plan unroll itself to you. don't you need to worry, don't you try to change it. for all you do will be futile and bring no joy but pain.

there will be signs when the timing is right and you shall be lead to where all things will fall in place. you need not explain yourself to anybody neither you need to seek approval from.

this is a pact between you and me.

-GOD

Solitude

没有什么人喜欢孤独的。只是讨厌失望而已。 - 挪威森林

"nobody likes to be lonely. just to avoid disappointment." - Norwegian's Wood

完美

完美不完美
让我们变的好虚伪

完美不完美
你让我的爱变成罪

Running

running has always been a strange friend. i never really got to like running until my 1st 21km which was in my final year in poly. hence it strike me the idea to do the 42km. believe me i was out of my mind then and it was too late to chicken out. i ran my 1st 42km in 2003. as a 1st timer i was pretty unprepared i taped my feet i wore the smoothest runner and pray i survived thru the run. after 5.5hrs later. i landed myself in the finishing line with abrasions, with sore, with pain in my knee and with the medal around my neck that begin my dangerous liaison with running.

did a surgery in 2004 and was told that i was advise not to run anymore. i felt disappointed but yet i cannot let go of this passion, this stubbornness in me. in 2005/6 i gatecrashed my 2nd marathon. its a stupid experience. but i hell enjoyed it.

since then i ran on/off. till 2008 came i promised myself to make a comeback and do myself a 3rd marathon. Dec 8, 2008. i did my 3rd marathon all the route have changed. marina south were closed. but padang remains the only finish venue. this time round it was different. i didn't had a chance to break my personal timing. but i gain more a finishing moment with a friend. 1 i motivated thru-out the run.

Time

time is like an arch-angel who came to u with fiery and mercy, he who come to and bash through the door and take away everything, he who come to help and heal u from every pain.

time makes you forget anything from love and hate, the good and bad, the guilt and pain, happiness and unhappiness.

time whisper that nothing last forever.

Run Your Own Race @ SCM 2008

The 3rd time running the 42.195km. Was pacing Rachel (hope she is recovering well from all the muscle cramps) had lotsa fun today.



Its definately not your average jog in the park, yet its not something normal people can't do. from my 1st race in 2003 till 2008. the number of participant rise from below 10K up to more than 50K. the sport itself has its charm. What i always like about marathon is that the persistent, courage, determination within each finisher who tries to finish the race. it takes alot of courage to just join and it takes a lot of determination to keep yourself moving forward. Throughout the race temptation from Deep Heat to Shelter/Shades to Bus-stop and sitting down. And the moment you stop moving, you stop the race because it take a lot more effort to bring you out of that comfort zone and back into momentum, hence the persistent you need to press on.

usually the filter zone is 25-35km which this year is at the ECP. that is where all the evil thoughts come in. but once you passed that mark chances are you will be seen at the finishing line.

35-42km i like to call this this the friendly zone, people are friendly and trying to motivate each other.most of the ppl gives & seeks strength and motivation here.

for those who have not ran it give it a try, its definately an experience.

Express Train-s-Port.

After going back home to collect my passport which i jolly well forgot to bring along with me (how smart), i reached Bugis and met Ed around 1.30pm to catch the Singapore-Johore Express to JB. damn it was raining heavily.

(This is the ticket. Looking damn old-school. i remember holding on to one of those when i was a kid.)

Reached City Square and learnt that they are having a Book Fair. hence we took a look and soon i got myself 4 books; Haruki Murakami's "Norwegian Wood" the mandarin translated edition, 2 of 几米 collections, 1 of 恩左 collection. Felt delighted.

After we came back, i had to rush down to City hall for dinner and for some reason the train refuse to open the door at City hall station and it went bonker in between City hall and Raffles Place tunnel around 8.30pm the wait was about 10-15mins before it resume service and i had to get off at Raffles Place to take a train to get over to City Hall. How unlucky...

Direct

can people be a little more direct with how they feel and what does they want?
this guessing game is silly... why must there be so much playing-hard-to-get going around?

just be true to yourself with what you really want...

我的立场很明显地表明我是喜欢你。。。
你的立场可以再干脆一点吗?