虚伪

为了让你开心，我背叛了自己。
我掩饰了挣扎，我伪装自己。
我无法出卖自己来对你坦白，
却得虚伪的面对你和面对我自己。

Laziness

the laziness is seeping in. the laziness is seeping in.
i have not really write anything recently. was busy, was tired, and maybe i was really being lazy...

Running

running has always been a strange friend. i never really got to like running until my 1st 21km which was in my final year in poly. hence it strike me the idea to do the 42km. believe me i was out of my mind then and it was too late to chicken out. i ran my 1st 42km in 2003. as a 1st timer i was pretty unprepared i taped my feet i wore the smoothest runner and pray i survived thru the run. after 5.5hrs later. i landed myself in the finishing line with abrasions, with sore, with pain in my knee and with the medal around my neck that begin my dangerous liaison with running.

did a surgery in 2004 and was told that i was advise not to run anymore. i felt disappointed but yet i cannot let go of this passion, this stubbornness in me. in 2005/6 i gatecrashed my 2nd marathon. its a stupid experience. but i hell enjoyed it.

since then i ran on/off. till 2008 came i promised myself to make a comeback and do myself a 3rd marathon. Dec 8, 2008. i did my 3rd marathon all the route have changed. marina south were closed. but padang remains the only finish venue. this time round it was different. i didn't had a chance to break my personal timing. but i gain more a finishing moment with a friend. 1 i motivated thru-out the run.

Direct

can people be a little more direct with how they feel and what does they want?
this guessing game is silly... why must there be so much playing-hard-to-get going around?

just be true to yourself with what you really want...

我的立场很明显地表明我是喜欢你。。。
你的立场可以再干脆一点吗?

Weekend at the River.

were at the regatta race, no doubt we didn't went thru but i felt that it was an experience.
the experience of the love of a sport, the atmosphere was overwhelming...

i'm looking forward for the next race to come... and i believe its time to start training really hard... URGH!!!

Buzzy Week

been a really pack week for me and yet thank goodness i did manage to find some time to rest. had done some really nice shopping, Went JB and bought some nice clothing. Back in SG, i finally gotten my a new phone and i'm so so happy. also i manage to bought some nice shoes.

some changes. trying some new look, i hope this is good.

Uniform Collection

attended terence's uniform theme birthday party. was rather a successful party where more than 40% of the people were dressed to the theme. we had some pilot, military personnel, general, martial artists, sailor, etc.

Brithday boy was wearing a very nice napoleon general costume. very elaborate, very nice.

me? i'm dress as a mechanical technician and my drink for the night - screwdriver (aka vodka+orange)

The Weekend Trapped...

quite an eventful weekend... on saturday during my lesson in skool i had to attend to nature calling (aka Pang Sai aka Sh*t.) so i went to the toilet to notice that the toilet roll was out. hence i check out the handicapped toilet and notice there were some extra toilet roll. as i was about to leave the toilet with the toilet roll, i notice the door knot was missing!!! i'm trapped in the toilet leaving a keyhole to the outside world!!! wtf...

after giving the skool admin a call they sent in the maintainence guy to the rescue and got the door knot fixed. how exciting the saturday got.

1st of November

Woke up in the middle of the night, finding most of the efforts i made these time seems futile. Weather slowly turning unpredictable. i guess i felt the winter breeze resurfacing deep within. in times like this i wish i had choosen darkness from cold...

Priceless...

Without a serving purpose, money and wealth is meaningless. the amount spent on a meaningful gift can be quantifiable and relatively affordable within one's budget range. but the surprise and the joy that brought to somebody and that smile which revealed by the receiver at the very moment is always priceless. And for that is the true value of the money and wealth.

Why "Random Colour Sky"?

Random by nature, to me, is natural. in life, many things and events are random and this makes life more interesting and colourful. i too am random/unpredictable at times, and with the negativities and "stigma" the society put upon random, i hated random. so why am i embracing it now?

At bad times we wish for/hope that possibility things might turn out well. the chances might be low but yet random. At good times we hope everything will go according to our plan/prediction. we hail at predictability and cursed at random. both are 2 sides of the same coin.

Random by nature also means chance and probability that other outcomes might happen. this give hope. it gives room for changes. Change by nature is like an opportunity for better or worst. it's your choice to decide how you want to look at it and which side of the line you want to be at.